Today’s WIAW is actually about what I ate on Tuesday, because if you saw the fest I had yesterday your eyes would boggle, but also I like showing off my Tuesday munchies since it’s a weird half-work sort of vibe and then one gets a little bit of everything. I was helping out with Advanced Word Editing on Monday and Tuesday so it was action stations followed by some hardcore essay writing for my library science diploma, AKA a good excuse for “brain food”.
Breakfast/05h30: Banana, zucchini, cucumber, lettuce, protein powder, water and psyllium husk smoothie plus prune purée minus the usual all-bran. I knew I’d get hungry later on with training so I decided to split up my breakfast into two parts. My brain was not impressed by this change in habit.Second breakfast/ 07h45: 1/2 cup oatmeal, cooked with water + cinnamon. Blergh. Also, it may be my funny guts but all these stories about oatmeal filling you up is all lies, and it makes me super sleepy.
Tea-time snack/10h30: an apple plus some coffee. I was SO nauseous and dizzy and just terrified at my body by this stage, so I’m really glad I got the main trainer to do the presenting for these sessions even though I was supposed to. When I get like that I can barely see and the world starts fuzzing in and out, and yet at the same time as being nauseous I’m rather ravenous. Stupid body!
Lunch @ home/13h00: Admittedly I went a bit overboard, which is why I took a monstrous nap afterwards. Steamed spinach, zucchini and green beans topped with some salsa and 1/4 cup leftover soy mince with a salad, followed by an ancient grain toast slice with mulberry no-sugar added jam and some steamed frozen veggies for no good reason other than pure indulgence. Oh, and there was 2 TBSP protein powder mixed with water, coffee, and a cookie (or two) of this super delicious stuff that my MIL bought from a really awesome lady at the Hazelwood food market – her cookies are usually coconut laden but she specially made vegan ginger coconut-free cookies for me and they are NOM NOM NOM. Too much so, because I have no stop button. Ah well! After all this and the nap I actually went for a pretty productive power walk with a pal for about an hour up and down all the streets and it was wonderful to get moving again after so long. We went again yesterday with Man-thing in the lead (he has ridiculously long legs), and we plan to go again today. Rah!
Afternoon snack/17h45: 2 TBSP protein powder plus hot water + cinnamon to tide me over for dinner.Dinner/18h15: raw zucchini pasta with cherry tomatoes, carrots, parsley and some green beans I think. YUM.
Dessert: Some jelly. Ok, a LOT of jelly. This was one helping…and then I helped myself to a lot more.Evening snacks: Hot carob with boiling water (x 2!), 1 cup papaya, 1 brown rice cracker with 1 vegan sausage. I was up playing Oblivion and watching youtube documentaries until midnight and beyond, so the munchies just carried on and on… One of the pitfalls of non-stop munchies and staying up late thanks to insomnia and other things is that I wake up in the morning in a terrible state – super nauseous yet hungry, miserable yet resigned. I need to cut out the late night snacking just to give my body a break but lawd it’s difficult! With my silly guts it takes infinitely longer to process foods, but that doesn’t mean my brain isn’t constantly in “hunger” mode, which means my body is always busy digesting and at some point gives up and decides that it’s going to punish me for my misdeeds. So it goes!
I hope I can get my act together in time for the next training session in two weeks time, since I have my biopsy next week which should give more answers, but I’m not sure if that will mean some immediate course of treatment, which I’d love! Anyway, the title of today’s post not only speaks to physical movement but to mental gymnastics as well, in a way. Between this body nonsense and other things, it’s becoming a challenge to stay upbeat all the time and my mind is constantly slogging between contentment and a sense of ennui that’s as difficult to shake off as fleas from a cat. Again, I’m just hoping that if I can sort my body out at some point and discipline my mind in the meantime not to make myself feel worse by eating random things at random hours, I can in small ways help my brain stay sane and positive about future developments. /TMI? That’s what WIAW is all about these days!
Anyway, happy days, it’s almost Friday! 😀